very tired but very happy

thursday i went to PD ... walau a .. the view very nice .. i went with richard , vincent , esther they all . very nice ...i don know how t o say .. but they really very nice ...

first day ( thursday ) we went there , we go the beach sit the banana boat ..cause i din bring shirt and pants to the beach .. i very carefully take care myself but unlucky also basah ady .. sad ... i don have choice den buy a pants at there .. cool mahal men RM 17 ... oh my god ... but really very happy ... after tat we went back to t he apt and rest .. richard , vincent ,a brother name call YA CHENG and me sleep a room ... wan t to rest also cannot rest .. a brother name call vincent always kacau .. make ppl cannot rest ... haiz .. at nite we go and eat at the lukut they ... the place very far away by our apt ..

second day ( friday ) , cause i , richard and vincent late wake up .. so we meet esther at the tiara beach ... on the way we go to the tiara beach .. we saw esther they all the place , i don know call wat name .. the place can sit small size sport car de ... i don kow call wat name la .... very cool also ... i din sit but sit beside they and watch only ... after tat we continue the way to tiara beach .. i , richard and vincent go inside liao .. walau a .. stupid esther they all cannot go inside wor !!!! don have choice den we some out lor !!! haiz .. bu t the tiara beach really really very nice .. don have choice den we go to the beach again .. esther ,vincent they all play at the beach there and richard and i sit at the beside there look at there all ... they angin really really very nice and very kuat also ... hehe ...

third day ( sat ) tat men today ... very tired liao .. and also start sienz liao ... just walk beside the beach with richard only ... after tat back liao .....
this trip very tired but very happy ... i long time din go to beach liao ... very nice and also very relax ...

very tired

don know why u feel very tired ... tired in the skul , tired in the church , tired infront of my friends , tired when work and also tired infront of him ..... i really very tired in everything ... can i don wan to care everything ... work , skul i also don wan to care it !!! i also don wan to care him ... i don wan to talk to him , i don wan to help him do everything ... i don wan together with him anymore ! if can , i most don wan to c him ! i hate to c him .... when i c him , i will love more !!! i don wan i don wan i really don wan ! but now i don know wat i wan to do ! how i wan to take choice !!!! i don wan to c him or i continue to c him ...... or i don care everything .... just do wat i doin now ??? don know !!!! just very confuse .......

actually now a day i don have mood , but i don have choice ... i got work , i got skul ... everything i also terpaksa buat ..... i don like ..... H always ask me why i don like to smile .... i don know how to answer him ...actually i like to smile , i hope i everyday smile , i hope i everyday also happy .... but don have thing make me very happy , den i don smile lol !!!!! but i din tell him tis reason is because H is not my who !!! H just my fren only !!!!

don know , now start skul liao !!!! start very tired ..... not tired in body ... i tired in mind , tired in mood , tired in smile and also tired with him !!!!! i hope GOD give me another new choice ... i don wan to know H , i don wan to know 3665 , i don wan to skul , i don wan to work , i don have friends at all .. if can i also hope i don wan come to tis world .... i hate everything in this world ....
who can tell me now ??? wat i wan to do !!!!!!!!!

today is a winter day

my be today i sick ady ... don know why .. today i feel very unwell .. body or heart also ... don know why will be like tat .... body ??? my be is demam liao .. so feel not well .. but heart ler ???? don know why i feel very pain ... don know why ....i love 3665 ...
today i wan to call him , but i scare he angry me .. don know how ! when i wan to call , my heart very pain .. i don know why will be like tat ! i don know why i wan to follow his way to walk ! when he don like , i don talk to him cause him been angry me .... when he like den i must follow his way to go ... i don understand ....

i don know why i will become like tat ???? like tat mean tat i has been control by him ... like tat mean tat i scare to lost him ! why i will become like ???? why i don know ... why today i only know i become like tat ???? i very sad and very pain .....

i don know when i been like tat !!!! when he call me , i really very happy ... even is sms i also very happy cause he contact me ... but when he din call me and sms with me , i will be very sad and very unhappy ... and also i will be very confuse ... don know wat i wan to do ..... who can tell me why ???

sad........

He ady 3 day din call me liao ..... why he now a days always forget to call me or he lazy wan wan to chat with me ..... don know why ???? i don know how my feeling .... my feeling tell me tat we will not be longer ..... 1 day we will hate each other or 1 day we will break ... i don know how to say ...... i don know god w an to give me wat .... but i hate now feeling .......... dulu even christmas or wat day .. or wat special or not a special day , he also will call me tell me this tell me tat !!!!! now i hate him , i hate him don call me , don tell me this and tat !!!!!!!!!

i don know why i so sad about tat .... i don know why i wan to hate him ... i don know if he don talk to me i will hate him .... i don know if he care me i will very sad ... i also don know if he don wan to tell me this and tat i will angry and hate him ....
eh , i think i have been crazy liao ... SHIT !!!! if can , i hope i don know him ... i don know his name , i hope i don know why he wan t o come to malaysia and i also hope i don love him ever ....

till now i also don know why i love him ... he is not malaysian ..... i don know why !!!! because of him i break up with kenny wong ... i don know why i wan to break up with kenny wong .... ! kenny wong very rich and good to me ! kenny give me so many happy remory to me ... he do everything to me ... i also don know why i because of him i break up with kenny ...because of him i do everything for him , because wan to wait for his phone the whole night i din sleep ... guy mind i don know ... i don know wat he thinkking about .... don understand !!!!